~Second to Nothing~

Birds in ORDER!~

Haha... I finally found this picture, after so long. I first received it in an email when I was at STATS. Then few months back, I encountered something which I made think of this picture.

How true, in any organisations, the lower u are, the more shit you get. This reminded me that I used to be extremely obssessive with being first in things I really want ... the most common was power. I wanted to be the leader in society and since secondary school I was the president of the ELDDS, I got even more confident I have that quality.

I was wishful in my thinking. After I stepped out of BP, I entered Campus Crusade in SP. In my 2nd year, I was the secretary of the committee and I knew what I wanted the year after. When I get confident, is the time I felt there was no better person to assume that post. I felt even 'bigger' when one of my senior brought up the topic on the 'appointment of the Student Coordinator' (will be the one who is the highest in post as well). He said it's either me or another girl. But soon the staff told me I got another post, and the other girl obviously got the post. I was angry (naturally), upset and disappointed. I rejected the alternative post I was given and became an ordinary member.

Recently, during my cell I was asked to be the Apprentice Leader, I took a long time to reply them on the spot (in front of the whole grp). I wasn't expecting to be the leader in cell anyway because this cell is a total difference in composition of members. hwee Lan thought I didn't want it. But in the end, i told her the whole story.

This is something only Sam knows, because I would tell him such stuff. I hesitated alot before posting this online. But WTH! It's my blog, and my heartfelt thoughts. Anyway, I'm really not thinking much now, I just hope that even though I'm sitting on the second row, I don't want to kena any unpleasant excretion on me.
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How can I tell the difference between good ambition and self-centeredness?

Look at your motives. Genesis 11:1-9

All human beings face many temptations to become self-centered—whether they are married, single, or single again. In particular, a single may worry that if she doesn't take care of herself, no one else will. Ambition is good—at least up to a point—because it keeps her from having to depend on others.

But ambition can also become self-centered. And self-centeredness can become dangerous. In the mysterious story of Genesis 11, a group of ambitious people decided to build "a tower whose top is in the heavens" (11:4). Their motive? "Let us make a name for ourselves, lest we be scattered abroad over the face of the whole earth" (11:4).

For reasons not entirely understood by Bible scholars, God smashed their plans. They became famous all right. A famous failure.

It's not wrong for a woman to be ambitious. But a wise woman will recognize the dangers of ambition and look carefully at her motives. Are they selfish? Are they likely to hurt someone? Or are they guided by what she knows of God's will and character?

A discerning woman evaluates first; then decides whether she should pull back or charge ahead.

He called the crowd with his disciples, and said to them, ‘If any want to become my followers, let them deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For those who want to save their life will lose it, and those who lose their life for my sake, and for the sake of the gospel,will save it. For what will it profit them to gain the whole world and forfeit their life? Indeed, what can they give in return for their life? Those who are ashamed of me and of my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of them the Son of Man will also be ashamed when he comes in the glory of his Father with the holy angels.' ~ Matthew 8:34-38

For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. 13And no creature is hidden from his sight, but all are naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must give account. ~ Hebrews 4:12,13

Good Words to Remember:
They said, "Come, let us build ourselves a city, and a tower whose top is in the heavens; let us make a name for ourselves. —Genesis 11:4

Today's Challenge:
Why do you want to succeed—for selfish reasons or for godly ones?